how i wish.

Im feeling very tired.


Mentally tired.



I wana sleep.



A very deep sleep.



And woke up with diff me.



P.S: i may be a cheerful gal when im with my frenz etc but deep down im feeling very emotional. I cant control my emotions when i drank too much, ill just cry. fren ask me y i wan to drink so muh etc. I replied, diff people has diff kind of relieving their stress. Some may keep smoking,some may go ktv to sing it out,some may go for a shopping spree. But for me i will go for drinking make myself "half dead" for that moment and not to keep thinking of things. and just cry out loud. But i know when i woke up the next day i may be the same old me again. But isnt it the same theory as ppl go shopping spent so much then when they are alone they are back to the same old them???
So frenz, i know its a UNHEALTHY thing for me to keep smoking & drinking but pls do not stop me as i didnt really stop u guys from wad u are doing. I know u guys care for me. I really appreciated. but I AM MYSELF. :)