I will nvr see u again i swear.

today i had a fight with him. I know im sensitive, i wana be back together with him neither he is showing anything. on the way to work today from his place, since yest he don really show any care for me the moment he care is the moment when we shared a bed cuz he lazy to move the other bed. I wanted to use his hp but he doesnt wan to. He keep his hp safely. My hp is spoilt due to the lcd. But i happen to see him messaging others. not that gal but the other. name vicky which i saw before earlier. i kept quiet i told him so have u finished all the shitty things which happen before? he said wad. He said i have my freedom so he wanted he's too. I was like okie fine.
wherever he go toilet or downstairs he will bring his hp along when there's no one messaging him. i don know y. this time he really keep me away from his phone. The more he does that the more i keep thinking wildly.

I hate that feeling.


today when i woke up he trying to treat me nice etc, i don know i feel that he is acting. Everytime i wan him to meet me he is NVR FREE. only when i go his house then he said he is free. WTF. so today we had a fight early in the morning before we go work. we fight till 1245 under the sun. Outside his house. He wants me to go home to tell his mum that i don wan to be with him not he don wan to be with me. I was like hey its u who is hiding something of cuz i cant take it. He pulled me. we stand for ard an hour under the strong sunlight.

after all the shit, i told him i need to work. So i rush off but he still cant let go of me. he followed me behind my cab. he reached earlier than me, when we quarrelled he pushed me and pulled me and beat me. i cant take it i push him,beat him back. and i throw my phone on the road. he pass me back my phone while im at shop, he asked even if i die u also won be together with me again. Everything he said i said NO. Nvr ill nvr be with someone who beats me up. We are not even offically together now we were still cooling down and i wan us to be together in the first place. I got nothing to hide from him, i told him everything. About any other guys. But he didnt. He choosed to hide. He knows that if he keep hiding ill wana know more. If he insisted not to tell me i will be thinking wildly and maybe more diff things of wad he did with others.


He left after a while, he wants me to kiss him on the lips then he promise he will nvr see me again. so i kiss him and he left. after he left i went to the toilet i realised there's bruises on my arm. 3 fingers..and my skin is getting darker. Just becuz i stand under the stand for an hour.. I hate my skin to get tanned. and bruises on my arm.

I really don wish to see him again, we always fight. Nvr peace. I hate that. HE NVR KNOW WAD I EVER WANTED AFTER A FIGHT NVR. HE NVR INTEND TO DO ANYTHING. cuz he thks its my fault. to start everything first. After so many incidents, he nvr do anything more. NVR. I hate it.


I decided to let go. Nvr be with him anymore. I don wan to drag anymore. Im tired. Mentally tired. He got a very good future. He can get better gals. Those gals who loves him more than he loves her.