Loving me is the hardest thing to do.

Im still gonna meet him today.
I don care.
I wan to love him only
I hope we wont quarrel today.

I want us happy.
but i don wan u to feel that u are being forced to meet me.
I wan u to meet me to tell me that u really feel like seeing me.
I wan u to love me.

I don wan us to fight.
every bruises i feel my heart ache.
I wan u to pamper like before.
I need time to change.
I wan to be the last time nicole that u know.

A gal who wasnt materialistic.
A gal who don go shopping as often.
A gal who don club.
A gal who don smoke.
a gal who don drink.

Im getting bad to worst.
Now i understand y u will wan to quarel with me.
Thinking back, i really did change alot..but from bad to worst.

I need time to change.
Pls give me some time.
Pls give ourself a chance.

cuz i realised i really cant live without u.
I really need to see u badly.