i miss those days, and i miss him.

4 years ago, our first time to zoo.

i miss those days..when we were together the days when we went travelling and clubbing together @ chinablack last time.

i miss the things we do. and i miss him alot. i seriously need to change for my own future sake if not i don thk ill ever get married.

i met him yesterday, it was a last min thing as i was kinda high and i went to his house to find him and it was freaking late at night. he still wil pick up my call, and i ask if i could go his place to find him and i really miss him sleeping beside me. but when i was at his house his mum wasnt asleep yet i was so afraid that the mum will be unhappy with me.. so i kept saying sorry to her.. which i don know y i keep saying that. :) anyway i slept very well last night. i had sweet dream.

i wanted to meet him again soon, but he doesnt have time for me nowadays as his exam is coming. and he wants to save money now..

but i feel that he's been rejecting to go out with me. i don know. sometimes its not tt i have no wan to go out with then i choose him.

is i really wan to see him.

i hope ill see him tomo and we have a very good time together.

i don wan to force him to be with me again. i need to change before he comes back to me. but he cant accept that i am a clubber,smoker and drinker. anyway i know that we have been going through all these shits like for years and we broke up again as im always the one suggested break up.

but now is him who wanted to break up with me. he said he had enough. and i understand, he said ive changed alot. last time, i don smoke,club and drink. i was a good girl.