yesterday, i stayed at home the whole day. ive been thinking alot..and i cried. i was so foolish in the past, i regretted for wad ive done. when i wan to amend it, its too late. ive been thking that maybe i should change, to club lesser etc. or maybe i should take some courses, instead.

my parent celebrate my birthday with me, i was so happy. and my dad told me that he had given me lots of freedom. but i took it for granted. my dad is disappointed with me.

that makes me thk that ive been wasting my time on clubbing and chilling out with frenz and not staying at home to communicate with my parents. i need to do something..i cant stay like this till 30s.

i have no one to rely on now, im living on my own. sometimes i really need a shoulder to rely on. i am someone who cant be independent at times. i will learn to..and im trying to.. :)