thanks mel for accompanying me last night.

i will only go home when my mum sleeps. but when i was home last night i was thinking y should i make myself so miserable. there's home for me to go yet im asking ppl whether can chill at their place. and they eventually rejected sometimes. not all time was alright to chill at their place. and i have to thk of places to go, or watch movie alone. it really sucks! i hate this feeling. i freaking hate being alone. pls save me.

but thank goodness, gordon accompany me when im down on sat.
thanks dear, for sleeping beside me and hug me to sleep all night long. but sorry that u did not have a good night sleep. and thanks for accompanying me to ZOUK FLEA on sun after our lunch, just wan to say thanks for everything. thanks for being there for me still, even though we arent together. but u are still the best. u are the only one that is still there for me, i hope u stay still. i know u have ur own frenz and stuffs. but ive been thking alot recently, i still need u. u understand me the most.

i hate being alone. the more i wan to be with frenz, all not free.

the more i wan to be alone, frenz asked me out.

its so sucks, i feel so freaking lost. and i was stoning the whole day.
i hate this feelng!! *i hate being rejected also!*

i heard this song at beds yest. the chorus stated how i feel:

笑不能笑 哭不敢哭

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍