i was lying on my bed and keep thinking of wad ive done for my family and ive realised tt ive been wasting my time but to tell myself tt im not young anymore. I cant play ard, its time for me to settle down soon. i need to change slowly. it will be kinda weird if i change all of a sudden,some ppl ard me will either be shock or thinks im up to something. And im also sick of playing mind games or being used by frenz. some ppl ard me wear mask, diff ppl they with, they are wearing diff mask. its so scary. or maybe me myself do wear a mask sometimes and i don even realised.

i always said i will cut down on drinking and clubbing, which i nvr really did. some ppl ard me who really cares for me, don even trust me at all. it makes me feel like shit. and i won make myself drunk for some stupid reasons again. pls trust me this time. I cant say only and not doing it.

i also realised tt ive gt a family to take care of too. ive not done my part for my family for years, its a shameful thing to say. IVE WAKE UP.