AMY.

after im back from hk,ive realised tt ive been clubbing or drinking non-stop. damn i need to stop.

ive been trying so hard to lose wt.i cant gain those wt back like so soon.

ive met a new fren, and it was really happening when she's ard. cool.

my emotional level went up again recently, i don know wads gg on with me.

been up and down. cant stop thinking and wana know.

but yet it turn out to be silence. and silence means everything to e ans i wana ask.

i would rather hear something.

anyway,i always said ill be better or wadever. no one really trust me.

and ive decided to see doc soon by this year*if can* for a full body check up.

cuz ive realised tt ive been having blackouts, blur vision and i cant breathe easily.

i need to take a deep breathe for almost every breath.

if its becuz of e slimming pills then y m i only experienced it like e 2nd month i took.

*hai i don know really*

my lungs will be black soon. liver harden. and ive still bulimic..its been 6 years*

and ive been telling my frenz if i ever realised anything happened to myself

i wont blamed anyone,im e one who don take care of myself yet still making things worst.

i do hv frenz who treated me so gd. yet i always take them for granted.

maybe i need attention.

*sorry, its my fault pals.* and still thanks for e loving msgs.

i really wana to take good care of myself before it turn worst.

but u guys know my character, is i need to experience it and feel e pain then i know its wrong.

stubborn and impatience.

anyway still thanks for being there and listen to my grumble, pals.

sorry for being selfish. ive received more than i give to u. my pals. sorry