wadever it is,i don really care anymore.

im so happy tt one of my secondary school classmates is getting married, and im e bridemaid. im looking forward for tt day to come. its on e 26/12/2009. i will be with her on e xmas day till e next morning. and im having a hotel party on e 26 of dec too @ grand hyatt. mission: slim down and save more money * so as to give bigger angbao and get a bigger hotel room! : spend more time with ppl i love. : make myself happier!! anyway, im feelign better nowadays. i was emotional for e past few weeks. and ive realised tt if i get drunk i keep texting rubbish or scold ppl or get more emotional,which is worst. so ive decided to control my drinking and actually i can do it yea. its all about mentality. some frenz come and go. its alright if u go,cuz i don wish to force some ppl to be in my frnez list whereas they don even forgive me or understand me, i give up on certain ppl ard me,whom used to understand me so much yet after ive done some things wrong over and over again. then they gave up on me. to me , i thk tt frenz are always there no matter wad have he/she done wrong to themselves or to me. ill still forgive him/her. afterall, i will still love to hv a fren then a enemy. but tt don apply t certain ppl. some gals just don like me. and i don know y. ive done nothing wrong to them. i nvr fuck them straight infront. i nvr stare at them. i even said hi first,if i did things to make them dislike me. hey, think twice y should i? im outgoing. i can even talk to some gals randomly. and ive so many frenz in clubs. y should i want to make an enemy like out of nowhere. or maybe ppl thought im acting 'dao'? like wtf. im not e only one who looks "dao" in club. and if u happen to be my frenz' fren , i won be not smiling at u. but i can most ppl are just being hypocrite. i admitted i was one if i have to be. do tell me u arent one of them before? anyway, i don really care about it. if u like me as a fren then ill like u as a fren too. if u don like to see me exist at all in front of u, i wont. but i wont hate u. BECAUSE I CANT MAKE EVERYONE ARD ME LIKES ME. TT ALL. its my life i have e rights to choose my frenz too not only u have e rights for ur own circle of frenz. and of cause there are some ppl i don wish to see at all too. and u cant make everyone likes u,im one of them. we won be hi bye frenz. just strangers is fine. we are known as strangers. better for all of us. if u want to be mean,i can be mean.